Getting in the Mood

Sooo I haven't exactly been blogging a lot recently, have I? I blame that nearly entirely on the fact that since I got the last two hardcover compliations of Runaways, I've been in a superhero-mood. Ehehehe ^^; So for the last couple of Sundays (that's when my group games) I've had a bit of difficulty getting in the mood to play DnD. And they are quite seperate things, even though I admit I am attracted to both, er, genres for similar reasons. Superhero stuff seems more Sci-fi to me, while DnD is obviously fantasy, and I've always had a problem relating them both in my mind. Its like they exist on different planets in my brain. I have no idea why that is, its just a very weird part of who I am.

But yeah, I need to kick my superhero-obsession to the backseat for tonight so I can play Tanisevania the best that I can. ...Therein lies a problem too, though. I'm either getting bored or frustrated, or both, with playing her. She is really easy for me to play and relate to in most ways. She's a good person, would rather run away from a fight than have one, cares about her friends, etc etc. Even her role as "conscience" to Grim is easy and very interesting to play. But I am still struggling with her sexuality and non-relationshippy-ness. I made her a big ho for a very specific reason - to keep her out of relationships. Technically that is working, but it is SOOOOOO hard for me to play!!! I have this natural tendency to push my characters into relationships. And because it would seem awkward for me to have one of my characters in a relationship with another PC (especially since I'm good friends with pretty much everyone else in my group), my characters used often ended up with my girlfriend's characters. I recieved some very hurtful criticism for that, and so to prove that I am a good roleplayer "despite" that, I decided to keep Tanisevania out of relationships. And the way I went about that, obviously, was to make her very sexually free. She's an interesting character, and that's a very interesting part of her, but...ugh!!! She has slept with about half the party at this point, which I've muddled through, but she sleeps with one character more than others - Grim, who's played by my friend Wayne. I've actually gotten pretty comfortable with their banter, and its been established that they are very close friends now too. I could easily see them working as a couple, but a) my character is a ho, and would probably end up cheating on him and b) that would be even more awkward for me, since Wayne is a good friend of mine. So I'll focus on that. No matter how awkward Tanisevania's ho-ish-ness is to play, playing her in a relationship with the character of one of my friends would be even worse.

Anyway, to get back on topic, I should have about an hour and a half to two hours between when I get off work and have to go to game in which to try and get in the right mindset. I have a piece of (superhero-related) artwork I want to finish enough that I can take it out of my sketchbook, but that shouldn't take long. Maybe after that I'll reread all the backstory stuff I have for Tanisevania. And/or look at fantasy stuff online. I dunno. But I at least have to make an attempt.